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Ask and You Will Receive

Psalm 37:4

Delight yourself also in the Lord,
And He shall give you the desires of your heart.

Last night, I had a long conversation with God. There are many nights when I just go to bed thankful. Thankful for the days and years I have experienced. I always become so overwhelmed with God’s goodness, and His grace extended to me. Some days when I am just still, not running errand after errand, and checking off my to do list, I have time to meditate on purpose and plan. It’s been officially 4 months since job separation. I have enjoyed not going to a 9 to 5. I enjoy planning my days, I enjoy giving my time and attention to the things I neglected so much when I was working. I love the way my spirit feels in the morning. I can say God what would you like me to do today, and it does not involve an outlook calendar or a 2 hour meeting about a meeting to have a meeting about the 2 hour meeting. I enjoy talking to strangers, and catering to those who have less than I do. It’s almost as if my level of sensitivity to others needs has increased. I find myself wondering how this came to be. Then just as I am basking in God’s goodness and grace toward me, I am reminded how much, the Lord has granted me when I delight myself in Him. I am shown how much of my worry and anxiousness is removed when I take complete joy in being in his presence. I lose myself in His word, I stand confidently in His promises, and when I speak life, it gives me life. I sing his word and it puts me at ease. I dance to glorify him. When I speak His truth into myself and others it makes my heart so happy. There is something about God’s will that is perfect and on time in every way. The prayers of yesterday that I prayed so long ago, seem to be manifesting right now. The prayers that brought me prostrate on the altar are being answered. What I asked for in His name is coming to past. It’s exciting and scary though for me. I say to myself, God is watching little bitty old me, little bitty Deniece. He is ordering my little feet with his humongous footprints.

I am reminded

John 16:23-24(NKJV)

23 “And in that day you will ask Me nothing. Most assuredly, I say to you, whatever you ask the Father in My name He will give you. 24 Until now you have asked nothing in My name. Ask, and you will receive, that your joy may be full.

So I made up my mind to take it all to Him in Prayer, to ask for everything in His name. I will always get an answer, and the more answers I receive the more I will realize just how aligned to His will I truly am. Whether his answer be Yes or No, both answers contribute to a larger outcome of our purpose and plans.

I guess what I am saying this morning is just ask in His name and then sit back and see what He does. Don’t second guess what He tells you because no one knows better or more than God the plans He has for your life. Short entry today.

Be Blessed and Loved Beyond Measure

written with Love,

Truth

A Prose for “The One”

I tried to find the words to say
They never came out so I had to pray
The Lord has promised me oh so much
But this one promise seems beyond my clutch
My soul is saved, yet I feel distress
My heart desires your caress
When I close my eyes, I see your face
Your smile takes me to a special place
I feel so safe in your embrace
Our bodies entwined makes my heart race
To fall in love was forbidden
But I cannot quench or keep it hidden
I want you only for myself
To love to cherish to share the “wealth”
The wealth of all that embodies me
The beautiful spirit that God set free
I know I’m not perfect and I will mess up
But I promise to love you and lift you up
Lift you up when the world weighs you down
Keep up your smile when you only wish to frown
I may not know everything about who you are
But since God picked you out I know your a star
He has crafted my love design
I pray that yours matches mine
Regardless of how we fit in what He has planned
My true desire is to call you my husband
Please take these prose as straight from my heart
And give our friendship a chance to start
No titles, drama, confusion, hurt or pain
Just you, just me, and God’s Divine Plan

Perfect Love: A Poem for the Struggle

My Perfect Love:

For years my body ached my temperature rose for a man who was like my drug addiction.
Lord have mercy on my soul for putting my love for this child of yours before you and my salvation.
See he spoke your word and made your promises from the bible our promises for the future.
Never did I imagine that such evil and temptation could come in this form. The desires of my heart he knew. The pains that have made me who I am, he knew. he got me through so many hard times…I was sure that he was a gift from you.
But the change came so suddenly. The more time I spent with him, the less time I seemed to spend with you. You see Father…I did not know you for myself when I met this man. I knew of you he spoke so Highly of You…yet he is, was, and will be a walking contradiction.
For he fed me your promises but did not believe them himself. Then I met You one day for myself…when this love of mine had caused me such pain…deceit…contracts broken…lies …a facade. I scrambled to put into place the pieces left behind. Taste and you shall see was all that rang forth.
Get a perfect love. Perfect love? Is there such a thing? Does it exists. You see friends my purpose is to love, to cherish all of you. Those that know me know I love hard. I am honest and pure in my heart and intent. Beauty that penetrates on the inside and permeates on the outside. Yet in a quest to find love and respect, I find my self swallowed in dark shadows trying to make sense of the uncommon sense….making change and cents from no monetary source because I am empty….on e…not fueled with the word that Jesus has left for me.
So many talk the talk but do not walk the walk. I myself have fallen short and try to be in and of the world when I am Yours Father. I have no business being of the world. I answer to you and you only.

So while the unjust seem to get away with quoting your scripture and tattooing such on their arms for show…one wonders what really lies on the inside. Psalm 23 Proverbs 31…yes great scriptures and we all know them by heart but do you wear it on your heart? Are you a living walking testament to the journey He is taking you on?
These are my random thoughts my feelings and my expressions to release what has been confused and tainted on the inside. I am not judging anyone. I too am messed up…but I have someone who can cleanse me. I know him personally and this is my love letter to Him. I love you Lord and I pray that you forgive me for not walking circumspect in the world. For not trusting you in all things and it is for this reason that I am turning my heart and circumstance and all those that I love over to you. For I have spent my life at this point loving hard waiting for that perfect love…I have found it in You. All else is obsolete. Friends love like He loves you and your suffering will be minimal. I am a living walking testimony to His love…it is unconditional, unfailing, and it is perfect and right in every way. SO today I am happy that I am in love and it is for eternity!

Welcome to the Journey of Me

Hi everyone. I am new to this blogging thing though if you speak to any of my exes who have had a digital deaths via email and text, they may beg to differ. I am a writer, a poet, a singer, a dancer, and on occasion I slay some clay and do pottery. My name is Deniece. I have so many nicknames: Truth, Niecy, Sunshine, Carrot, Dee Dee etc. I mainly believe it’s because people associate you with what they think suites you and sometimes its just easier to call someone something else, Lord knows almost everyone spells my name wrong. In most instances friends, family and the like have been accurate in these name alternatives. So at the end of the day don’t all nicknames just kind of fit and work? It begs the questions: Who do you believe you are?  Are you what others think of you or do you have a true sense of self? Is your sense of self like that of a chameleon? Do you change by a Facebook status, Twitter update, or an Instagram post? Are you grounded in a solid foundation? Are you sinking in tech quicksand, and virtual reality with the hopes of finding yourself in a javascript, HTML5 , C++, or BASIC soap opera which we now categorize as our “life online”. I say “you” loosely, but I am speaking to me too. My point is that the journey to myself is a long one. I used to think it was based on of how many goals I could accomplish in 5 year increments. Then I started running out of goals or rather they just weren’t big enough and awesome enough in my humble opinion…though my resume indicates otherwise. So, here I am writing in hopes that for every word I type, a small piece of me will be revealed, shoot maybe I can help someone along the way. I mean isn’t that what the journey is about? By the way be prepared for lots of scripture, lots of laughs, and maybe some tears. I already have a foundation…drumroll the word of God, it’s the application that is the hard part. Did I mention I am a perfectionist and control freak, so guess what that already makes me a contradiction to Most High…He is in control and sovereign. So imagine what its like for me relinquishing all control…its a daily struggle. Despite my major flaws, He loves me and blesses me anyway, so the least I could do is tell whoever will listen about His goodness, grace, and mercy…right? Right. Anyway I hope you enjoy till next time. Be blessed:

Ephesians 5: 1-2 

Walk in Love

Therefore be imitators of God as dear children. And walk in love, as Christ also has loved us and given Himself for us, an offering and a sacrifice to God for a sweet-smelling aroma.