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“For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this age, against spiritual hosts of wickedness in the heavenly places.”‭‭Ephesians‬ ‭6:12‬ ‭NKJV‬‬

http://bible.com/114/eph.6.12.nkjv

When you are trying to walk in light and speak life into situations a few things happen. You are tested on what you believe, what you see, what you think. I am humbled by my recent life experiences. I have been in spiritual warfare so heavy and I found myself unprepared and unsuspecting. Perhaps I had become so complacent in my walk, slightly arrogant in my faith and closeness with the Lord. I went from I need you for everything to well no God only theses things and areas. Funny how my ability to give an encouraging word to others did not manifest daily as went through my most recent battle. Everything I knew and know to be true about God was questioned, twisted so to speak. I begin to see myself as one of little faith as my tribulations and trials became bigger. Fighting spiritual battles in the flesh is impossible. I repeat impossible. I knew this but day after day I wrestled with the enemy, I showed up for every fight. I stood on the frontline without my breastplate of righteousness, my belt of truth, my shield of faith, and my sword. I suddenly found myself back peddled into a space of repetition. Like a hamster on a wheel trying to save a loved one that really wasn’t for me to save.  The doubt created in the circumstance was only one that the enemy could devise. Even though I knew it I saw this movie before so to speak and I knew how it would end I found myself believing I could alter the ending. This time would be different. He didn’t mean to throw that pot, he accidentally pushed me, his anger is just a struggle…it will get better. If he didn’t love me he wouldn’t buy me nice expensive things. A purse is not worth enduring a flying pot. 3 diamond rings is not worth devastation and lack of peace. It will get better I said, but It didn’t. Now here I lay wounded, heartbroken, a bit fragile, and wondering how had I gotten myself so caught up.  We have all been there all done that… Or have we? Some run at the flags, some see them and take it as a personal mission to fix a person, and sadly many stay and many die. Domestic violence is real. It happens daily and many live in secret and shame because of fear of the abuser and embarrassment among loved ones. It doesn’t have to be this way though. Im free. I’m safe. I’m healing and my trust and faith in God along with loving friends and family helped me through. The war though still continues. This is the last time I will be in an abusive relationship. I will still stand on the frontline. This time I will be clothed in the armor.  The weak areas that I desperately tried to hide from God have been uncovered and I am positive that He will restore. I’m writing to get this out, but I’m also rejoicing because I have a praise on my lips and joy in my heart. I’m thankful for the life I have been given and eternally grateful that what was meant for evil and designed to destroy drew me closer to the lover of my soul and captain of my sea: Jesus Christ. Your story may not be my story, but the instruction manual is still the same yesterday, today , and forever. So I pray my loins stay girded and you all are girded as well. Peace and Blessings.
Written in love

Be Blessed

Truth

Choosing Love Part II

When I think about the goodness of God and all He has done for me, my soul cries hallelujah. I look back over my life and I have endured more pain then I care to think about, but I have also experienced an even larger amount of joy. Some of my most painful moments shared  several commonalities. In other words I often  experienced this pain because of
1) a poor choice decision I made
2) a refusal to align with God’s will
3) a false understanding and misrepresentation of Love: what it feels like, what it looks like, what it does for you and what it makes you do for others.
4) lack of communication
(To God in prayer and to the  perpetrators involved)

I wrote an entry that started this way a few weeks ago and I decided to use it again.

So I try to reflect on this as often as I can and I tweak and adjust accordingly to show what love is patient, kind, sweet. I fall short sometimes by saying things I don’t mean or showing little to no regard to others. God showed me His Heart and love for me. He woke me up this morning started my day. He has given me assignments, some I havd completed, others not so much. After months of an intense job search, I’ve finally landed where He desires me to be. For 5 months I planted seeds and I sowed and now I am about to reap. I learned some new things about myself and I became reaqquainted with some things I had forgotten. Some of my thoughts, beliefs and understanding of many things have been challenged.  But in all things still choosing love over any and everything else.  In doing so and being observant I realize that not everyone is open to receive it and believe it. How uncomfortable it must be to receive real love and it not look like what the world says it is. How  strange to be with someone who trusts you to be who you are, who comforts you when need them, who prays for you while you are in a storm, who encourages you to walk in the will that God has for your life? Who is kind and patient and whose  words sooth like honey. This should be the norm but instead people  have bitterness, and layers of experience that has misconstrued and destroyed Love. TRUE love. God is Love, so if your understanding of God in all is mightiness is one Who is kind, patient, loving, understanding, self controlled, and giving and forgiving …one who displays these actions, why is it so hard to mimic the character of God. I’m just talking today. I’m in a state of trying to understand and navigate through loving people. Loving even when they seem unloving and unlovable. Perhaps it’s because God loves me so much it has become second nature to walk in my spirit and speak in my spirit without flesh getting in the way as it so often does.  What is the answer what do you do ? Sometimes there isn’t one. God just wants us to be obedient and in doing so the answers come. So the other part about love, we choose who to love and we put it into action. It’s easy and free flowing but it’s got to be God  Centered and Christ featured. Love began with them so taking them out
of the equation does way more harm than good.

Be Blessed,
Written with Love
Truth

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Ask and You Will Receive

Psalm 37:4

Delight yourself also in the Lord,
And He shall give you the desires of your heart.

Last night, I had a long conversation with God. There are many nights when I just go to bed thankful. Thankful for the days and years I have experienced. I always become so overwhelmed with God’s goodness, and His grace extended to me. Some days when I am just still, not running errand after errand, and checking off my to do list, I have time to meditate on purpose and plan. It’s been officially 4 months since job separation. I have enjoyed not going to a 9 to 5. I enjoy planning my days, I enjoy giving my time and attention to the things I neglected so much when I was working. I love the way my spirit feels in the morning. I can say God what would you like me to do today, and it does not involve an outlook calendar or a 2 hour meeting about a meeting to have a meeting about the 2 hour meeting. I enjoy talking to strangers, and catering to those who have less than I do. It’s almost as if my level of sensitivity to others needs has increased. I find myself wondering how this came to be. Then just as I am basking in God’s goodness and grace toward me, I am reminded how much, the Lord has granted me when I delight myself in Him. I am shown how much of my worry and anxiousness is removed when I take complete joy in being in his presence. I lose myself in His word, I stand confidently in His promises, and when I speak life, it gives me life. I sing his word and it puts me at ease. I dance to glorify him. When I speak His truth into myself and others it makes my heart so happy. There is something about God’s will that is perfect and on time in every way. The prayers of yesterday that I prayed so long ago, seem to be manifesting right now. The prayers that brought me prostrate on the altar are being answered. What I asked for in His name is coming to past. It’s exciting and scary though for me. I say to myself, God is watching little bitty old me, little bitty Deniece. He is ordering my little feet with his humongous footprints.

I am reminded

John 16:23-24(NKJV)

23 “And in that day you will ask Me nothing. Most assuredly, I say to you, whatever you ask the Father in My name He will give you. 24 Until now you have asked nothing in My name. Ask, and you will receive, that your joy may be full.

So I made up my mind to take it all to Him in Prayer, to ask for everything in His name. I will always get an answer, and the more answers I receive the more I will realize just how aligned to His will I truly am. Whether his answer be Yes or No, both answers contribute to a larger outcome of our purpose and plans.

I guess what I am saying this morning is just ask in His name and then sit back and see what He does. Don’t second guess what He tells you because no one knows better or more than God the plans He has for your life. Short entry today.

Be Blessed and Loved Beyond Measure

written with Love,

Truth

Choosing Love

When I think about the goodness of God and all He has done for me, my soul cries hallelujah. I look back over my life and I have endured more pain then I care to think about, but I have also experienced an even larger amount of joy. Some of my most painful moments shared  several commonalities. In other words I often  experienced this pain because of

1) a poor choice/decision I made
2) a refusal to align with God’s will
3) a false understanding and misrepresentation of love and happiness: what it feels like, what it looks like, what it does for you and what it makes you do for others and most important where it comes from!
4) lack of communication
(To God in prayer and to the perpetrators involved)

I recall a time when I met someone who looked good on paper, but was lacking every great quality that I desired in a companion. I often wondered why is it so hard to find a loving companion. Why is everything taking so long, why hasn’t he crawled through my window (because clearly he doesn’t frequent my local grocery store, Starbucks and any other place I have graced my presence with.) Sometimes Love is right in your face though. It comes from the least expected places and from people you least expect. Here is the reality, I want to be spoiled, I want to be courted, but above all else I want to be appreciated, not just for what I look like, but for who I am, what I am about. I want acceptance for being just me. I want my husband to know that I am a gift from heaven and that he is also my gift. I want to be protected and cared for so I can nurture and support my husband and children. I want children. I want my life and that of my family to glorify God in a mighty way.  I admire married couples who have been married for years, they make an effort daily to love their partner for who they are, they run the race of life together. For affairs of love and relationships, I speak love and give life to all current circumstances. I leave you all with these scriptures. So the next time you find yourself in a conflict of relationship or circumstance  ask  yourself if  any of the four commonalities I mentioned above occurred  ( be honest too, I trust you) . Then meditate on these below.

1. “Above all, love each other deeply, because love covers over a multitude of sins.”- 1 Peter 4:8
2. “Though one may be overpowered, two can defend themselves. A cord of three strands is not quickly broken.” – Ecclesiastes 4:12
3. “Be completely humble and gentle; Be patient, bearing with one another in love. Make every effort to keep the unity of the spirit through the bond of peace.”- Ephesians 4:2-3
4. “For I know the plans I have for you, ‘Declare The Lord,’ plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”- Jeremiah 29:11

5. “Therefore what God has joined together, let no one separate.”- Mark 10:9

It’s hard enough running alone, so running together is a blessing.  I choose love this day and everyday for my family, friends, and loved ones.
Written with Love,
Truth

Check Your Company

I Corinthians 15:33-34

Do not be deceived: “Evil company corrupts good habits.” Awake to righteousness, and do not sin; for some do not have the knowledge of God. I speak this to your shame.

All week long the Lord has been dealing with me about habits and the company I keep. Naturally, I decided to meditate on this and see what my manna from Heaven says. So in my humble opinion, I have the greatest friends and support group around me. I live thousands of miles away from my hometown in Boston, but I have managed to find me a great church family, some lifelong friends whom I now consider family : shoutouts to Young Palmer, Killah K, Brownie and Waffle. P.s I’m big on nicknames so these have been used to protect the innocent. I spend so much time with
these 4 people and we just click. If you have ever had some really great framily (friends+family) then you know what I’m talking about. These people keep me on my toes and sharpen me spiritually. Then there are my friends and family back home WAY too many to name. I think about the good habits I’ve developed. Those are easy. Before Christ though I had some pretty bad habits…I was bitter, angry, drank too  much, cussed too much, fought too much, I smoked nasty cigarettes, yes (I know gross). I got in my own way all the time, because I believed I was in complete control of anything and everything around me. I was stressed sometimes even depressed. The best thing I ever did was exchange my company I kept. For starters I had to recognize God and recognize that He gave His only son for me. Do you know how much pressure and burdens were lifted from me, just in acknowledging Christ as my Savior. Receiving God’s love and developing a relationship with Him literally forced me to check my company and exchange it for ultimate comforting company: Jesus and his Holy Spirit. The Bible says Be Not Deceived Evil Company corrupts Good Habits. Have you ever backslid into a poor habit, or found your oh so saved self doing things you used to do and then wondering what happened? Well, I have and I had to self evaluate and check my company. Checking your company is not always checking your immediate circle of friends or family either, sometimes checking your company is doing a spiritual read of the holy spirit that dwells in you . IS IT PRESENT AND BEING FED? In other words…what have you been pouring into yourself spiritually, physically, and emotionally. Are you spending enough time with God and asking Him to keep you. There is a song that says “oh to be kept by Jesus
It sings about being in the company of the Lord. We must do this daily. It’s easy to blame our shortcomings, backsliding, and iniquities on others and circumstances, but let us not be deceived that all influences are always other men. YOU (myself included can be your own worse enemy). Nurture yourself regularly and know what God has in store for you. It’s okay to ask others for advice but God has the final say and knows the plans He has for you!

Jeremiah.29.11.nkjv
For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the Lord , thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope.

Check your company, your first line of defense and first “person” in your presence should be the Holy Spirit. Its here to guide you. So try to steer away from evil company that corrupts good habits. The best way to do this is to be spiritually strong. Evil spirits can’t be around Good spirits very long.  Scripture tells us  at the name of Jesus, every knee shall bow and every tongue confess that Jesus Christ is Lord, but it will help if people actually see Jesus in you and that they recognize you dwell in the company of the most high. Just a bit of food for thought!
Be Blessed,
Written with Love
TRUTH

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Talk to God First

It’s so easy out of confusion, frustration and fear to run and talk to everyone else when we are going through trials and tribulations. Sometimes speaking to people makes the situation worse especially  when you have not prayed about it. The opinions of others will convolute your mind. OTHER Personal experiences come into play and then you are even more confused then you were before you spoke. I’ve done this many times over the years, not always realizing that God didn’t allow  me  that trial to ask someone else about it, He tossed me  that trial because He knew  I could handle it. He wanted my attention to converse with him on the altar. Now I converse with  God all day long over things  that often don’t matter much. Little things, but God can handle all things. He can handle broken friendships and relationships,.He can handle crazy bosses, He can handle 10 year old pains, He can conquer addictions, He can Heal the sick. Sometimes we get so caught up in the anointing and blessings He gives us that we forget, we didn’t get there on our own. I had a crazy week of spiritual warfare and I approached it in my flesh at first . Then I remember that Prayer is the ultimate powerful weapon that I possess. I remembered that when I pray things really do happen!  I remembered that prayer will ease and calm my fears, quiet storms, and manifest miracles. I remembered that God placed wise Godly people in my path to speak life into me, to guide me and to love on me in my weaknesses. I rejoiced in having that type of support.
So I meditate on this:

Job 5:8 NKJV
“But as for me, I would seek God, And to God I would commit my cause—

And this
Job 15:8 NKJV

Have you heard the counsel of God? Do you limit wisdom to yourself?

As wise as I think I am, I can sometimes limit wisdom to myself , not recognizing that Wisdom comes from God and our life experiences. Trying to walk in our own wisdom is like turning on a garbage disposal sticking our hands inside  and expecting our hands not to be marred and scarred. The great thing about this week, is that everyone  I encountered prayed with and for me to shift the atmosphere. Stepping outside of myself and circumstances made me realize that I have an assignment. The spiritual  warfare that I’m experiencing is because I’m on assignment to sharpen iron in my circle of influence and beyond but for starters it’s my circle of influence and myself . So so how wonderful it was that when I called my sisters in Christ to speak they already knew they needed to pray with me. AFTER ALL the Devil is in the details. I never really thought about what that meant. But I do know that the more one rehashes or retells a scenario the larger and more painful it becomes, it’s like giving power and strength to the problem instead giving it to God. I’ve done this plenty of times. So the next time a conflict arises and issues come upon you, Talk to God first and don’t seek counsel from the wicked, seek it from the Saints that know, love, and serve the God you have come to love. Then watch Him move with infinite  power and wisdom.
Written with Love,
Truth

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