Tag Archive | enemies

Ask and You Will Receive

Psalm 37:4

Delight yourself also in the Lord,
And He shall give you the desires of your heart.

Last night, I had a long conversation with God. There are many nights when I just go to bed thankful. Thankful for the days and years I have experienced. I always become so overwhelmed with God’s goodness, and His grace extended to me. Some days when I am just still, not running errand after errand, and checking off my to do list, I have time to meditate on purpose and plan. It’s been officially 4 months since job separation. I have enjoyed not going to a 9 to 5. I enjoy planning my days, I enjoy giving my time and attention to the things I neglected so much when I was working. I love the way my spirit feels in the morning. I can say God what would you like me to do today, and it does not involve an outlook calendar or a 2 hour meeting about a meeting to have a meeting about the 2 hour meeting. I enjoy talking to strangers, and catering to those who have less than I do. It’s almost as if my level of sensitivity to others needs has increased. I find myself wondering how this came to be. Then just as I am basking in God’s goodness and grace toward me, I am reminded how much, the Lord has granted me when I delight myself in Him. I am shown how much of my worry and anxiousness is removed when I take complete joy in being in his presence. I lose myself in His word, I stand confidently in His promises, and when I speak life, it gives me life. I sing his word and it puts me at ease. I dance to glorify him. When I speak His truth into myself and others it makes my heart so happy. There is something about God’s will that is perfect and on time in every way. The prayers of yesterday that I prayed so long ago, seem to be manifesting right now. The prayers that brought me prostrate on the altar are being answered. What I asked for in His name is coming to past. It’s exciting and scary though for me. I say to myself, God is watching little bitty old me, little bitty Deniece. He is ordering my little feet with his humongous footprints.

I am reminded

John 16:23-24(NKJV)

23 “And in that day you will ask Me nothing. Most assuredly, I say to you, whatever you ask the Father in My name He will give you. 24 Until now you have asked nothing in My name. Ask, and you will receive, that your joy may be full.

So I made up my mind to take it all to Him in Prayer, to ask for everything in His name. I will always get an answer, and the more answers I receive the more I will realize just how aligned to His will I truly am. Whether his answer be Yes or No, both answers contribute to a larger outcome of our purpose and plans.

I guess what I am saying this morning is just ask in His name and then sit back and see what He does. Don’t second guess what He tells you because no one knows better or more than God the plans He has for your life. Short entry today.

Be Blessed and Loved Beyond Measure

written with Love,

Truth

Friend or Foe

Proverbs 17: 17 A friend loves at all times, And a brother is born for adversity.

Its been a few days since I last wrote. I am actively searching for a new career opportunity so my search is my full-time job now. The last few days have been great and the one thing that has been a re-occurring theme for the week is recognizing true friendship and the value that people add or take away from your life including what you add and take away as well.  Proverbs 18:24 A man who hath friends must shew himself friendly: and there is a friend that sticks closer than a brother. It seems strange to think of relationships as mathematical equations  mainly addition and subtraction. Weighing one’s interactions with one another based off what he or she can do for you at your time of need. However the reality is that in order to be a friend, you must show yourself friendly. Literally since Sunday after my “timeline tangents” piece, I have been confronted with whether I am a friend or foe, or if my current circle of friends are friends or foes.

Sunday, I had the pleasure of having dinner with a friend whom I met in 2012. Not a foe. I suppose at some point we had some interests as a prospect maybe for love and a relationship. But after the first few gatherings, I had a small voice in my head that said, He is not the one. He is a great person, and can be a great friend…so I stuck him in the friend zone. We remained in contact but not as often as our first few months of knowing each other. Fast-forward to 2015, this same person and we are chatting up over dinner and drinks about men and women and relationships having a great time, and I thought to myself how great to call him friend. How thankful I was, that I had the sense and courage enough to not waste this man’s time nor my time with false hopes and intentions. I would not be able to enjoy this moment the way I did. Speaking so freely of my dating bloopers, and crazy encounters and him sharing as well, it was certainly a night of laughs.

Then Monday, I was in the courthouse, listening and shadowing my supervisor for the cases of neglected and abused children. One of my fellow volunteers was testifying in court. I found myself nervous and excited for her because I knew that this would be me soon in two months. She was so nervous to speak about the case that she has followed for well over a year. I felt compelled to encourage her, and tell her she would do great, and just speak from the heart and tell the truth and facts. I presented myself as a friend, I showed support for her concern and her fears, and I helped increase her strength to do so with a few simple words: You can do it. The same words that the holy spirit whispers to me on a daily basis as I go through life. Not only can I do it, but I don’t have to do it alone.

Then Tuesday, oh Lord Tuesday: Interview in the daytime and bible study at night. Ready? Go!  I had an interview at 11:00 am, it went wonderful, however not without some hiccups. For starts I was late (points off I am sure) even though I was at my destination 15 minutes early . It totally wasn’t my fault though, I was in a weird Leed certified building where the up button gets you to lower lever floors, and the down button gets you to upper level floors. There are sky lobbies and valets and each floor has a specific map to get to it. Oh and my destination was 53. Excuse my french, what in the ____? Yeah exactly, so I was lost in the building. I arrived about 6 minutes late, filled out an application (to which I wondered why am I filling this out when I have a fully developed and engaging resume: hash-tag millennial and first world problems. the level of redundancy was unnerving.) I have gotten so accustomed to typing, that writing makes me feel like an arthritis patient, and I hardly recognize my once beautiful handwriting). As neat as I wanted to be, I was turned off by using a pen to fill out a 3 page application, for an interview I was already late for when my perfectly typed resume answered every question asked on the application. Because of the hiccups, my disposition was a bit short and I was a bit thrown off. My interviewers told me everyone gets lost to the office and politely smiled. So I suddenly felt like the butt of an inside joke, not to mention the email confirmation has the instructions on the bottom on how to use the crazy elevator.  This was going to be interesting. My answers at first were cold, straight forward and I believe I may have come off as uninterested. Ding Ding, enter still small voice…be nice/kind, show yourself friendly. I felt like I was failing miserably, just a small shift in my spirit made all the difference. Now prayerfully, my professional and friendly side showed more than my frustrated side. My anti-pen and three page application tantrum I was having with myself was about to make me blow an opportunity. My point, you can be your own friend and foe at same time, try to chose to be your friendlier self if you can.

Long day, and now I am in bible study, learning about financial stewardship, and about how I handle both my body and finances are means of stewardship. All of my resources come from God, including this 34-year-old temple. It was given to me by God, so naturally I should be a good steward of it. All of this was great, but that wasn’t the only bread that fed to me. It was what happened afterwards. Some of my nights are sleepless and I am always thinking. So this week, I thought of my friends. The people I consider to be friends, the ones who have shown themselves friendly to me throughout my life. The ones who have been there for my biggest seasons, smallest seasons, saddest seasons, happiest seasons, busiest and slowest seasons. Here I am finishing bible study, and a great minister comes to me and speaks to me and prays over me  about friendship. He describes my late sleepless nights wondering where all of my friends are, what they are doing, why they were here for this time but not that time. To trust people to a “degree” . So I think to myself “Um-mm, pause, who are you and why do you know what I have been doing at night? My makeup is flawless, so I have no bags under my eyes, my smile is brighter than a Colgate commercial, and the joy on my face is obvious!” The tears flowed freely as well as the praise upon my lips. He reminded me that there is a friend in Jesus, which I know all too well. Then it hit me, only one friend has been there for every season: God. He knows all about every season that has been upon my life.  Look at God! It gets better though.

Wednesday, I called people, I text people to say hello, I extended myself to find out how people were, ate dinner with one of my little sisters (Hey Brownie). I even had a few unexpected phone calls from people who I simply adore and have fond memories with, and have not heard from because life gets so busy. Busy all the time. We picked up right where we left off as if nothing ever stopped/ended. Today, I got a pedicure with a woman who I have come to call a new friend despite having met some time ago through my fabulous stylist. She is a wise and beautiful person inside out. I can only hope I will be as awesome when I become her age. I enjoyed talking and catching up and guess what, we talked about friendship: recognizing it, developing it, maintaining it, and sustaining long-lasting friendships. We talked about people and life and discerning and assessing who is worth trusting.  So this week has been about friendship and trust for me. I rejoiced for the ways that God shows me my strengths and weaknesses. Newsflash Deniece, not everyone is going to be your friend, not everyone will lift you up….BUT GOD will. He will send the appropriate person(s) to encourage me, He will make me an encouragement to others, and He will show me that He is the best friend I could ever have. If I trust Him, know Him, and spend time with Him, then I can see Him in my life. He will always show up and show himself friendly and loving towards me. Amen? Yes Amen.

Be Blessed

Proverbs 17: 17 A friend loves at all times, And a brother is born for adversity.